Health wellness

Thinking about the beginning of the semester, me and a friend decided to stay healthier and be ready for 5K run in Nov.

Today is the Nov 1st. and the race is only 4days away.
I have been working out constantly since this summer, so from June, and lost 30lb of weight.
I think I should keep notes what I did and what gave me energy to do, to make my future life better.

So, I had guilt since I can remember being ballet. I always tried to lose weight but never thought to be healthy. At that time, I was skinny enough actually, 120lb and 5.4tall. But I wasn't self confidence at all. Then, I moved to the U.S. and with all the junk food, I gained 30lb and lost my mind.
After a while I felt like to be just healthy. and started working out!

1, I kept notes for what I ate. All the food or drinks that has calories. I called it health note. When I can, I put the calories next to the food so I can count them even roughly. I wish I have my iPhone here and able to use apps. but I like my way too.

2, I took "Multivitamin for her" pill everyday. To keep truck, I also put circle on my health note. Because I am kinda anemic, I think it helped me staying nourished enough. As a consequence, I made my first success at blood drive, which I always failed!

3, I exercised almost everyday. even for 30min, it released stress for sure. I always realize that it's so hard to burn calories with work out, so why do I need to take unnecessary calories from crappy food? I liked muscle training too. I made my weight training circuit and I did them one body part a time and switch every day or every other day. I loved the way I can see the result. If I push myself harder, I really can see the result!!

4, When I get tired of being on the treadmill, I went to outside. My favorite is track. I like to see the distance I went. right before the sunset, it's so beautiful!

5, I made a promise that I won't have any pop drink but 1 every month. I don't know for sure, but I believe, pop have some sort of special power. even I take diet, I feel like it's going to my fatty tissue.

6, Eat healthy. I think I took advantage for being on meal plan. I went to cafe a lot for lunch and dinner. and ate sandwich or bagle and salad a lot. No dessert too.

7, I found super cool website, http://undressedskeleton.tumblr.com/
  This girl, Taralynn McNitt, she is young, but has really good knowledge and motivation for being healthy. She is awesome! and boosts me to go for it!

8, I also got motivation fromhttp://pinterest.com/, being surrounded among things I love, just makes me happier. Also, the category for fitness has good tips or workout menu.

9, Also, watched the reality show "biggest loser" they are inspiring a lot! and available on netflix :)

Whenever I faced to the temptation, I tried to be relaxed. Sometimes I failed, but I don't want to quit being healthy. My goal for now is be a coolest 80years toned lady!
Changing life will take longer time, so I will continue!

Changing views

Hello folks. It's me.
I may write kinda dark subject. so if you feel like not read, please do so.
After the whole summer of depression and reluctance, I "re" started my self and things.
I believe my engine is going back and not like suicidal.
Honestly, I felt myself being  in a manic state and being depressed kinda like switching time by time for a long time. However, I believe this time, I broke my bbbbbbbbbbbiiiiiggggg wall of the mental and will be more stable than before. Not gonna be hyper and either depressed too deep.

Anyway, I am on the working out constantly with buddy. I'm feeling how the physical health effects to the mental health closely.

Also, moral was the huge portion of my decision making for a looong time. But these days, I realized that I was adjusting my moral to whole society, which is very stressful for both side when it doesn't match the level. So I quite. well, I will quite.
It was like a desire to control everything around me, and of course it's impossible. right?

Now on I also feel like i'm less energetic than before. and that was the big deal for me to be motivated to everything and to be correct to the everything too. Most of the time, the energy will not be rewarded as I expect, and will be just a breaking bones.
What I want to say is that I'm more relaxed about me now!!!

I am going back to be me like when I was little :)

I am in Japan

Hi. I arrived japan yesturday. and now I'm looking for the part time job.
I kinda quit job hunting now. probablly start it again after I went back to school.
And I got my first B on my grade this semester. I thought I made it through and would finish my degree w/ straight A. I worked for that so hard, I guess. And it was almost there. 2 more classes. I found out that after I came back to Japan. and made me so depressed. I should be more optimistic about this and about every thing else too. But I feel like I am the heroin of the my drama and am the saddest person in the world.
Probablly, I need a break. but at the same time, I've been depressing like this way for almost an year.
Such a dumn. And what the irony is my family is so supportive and make me feel more misrable. I am lucky definietely, but cannot be rational about the world!!!
Sorry for being such a grampy and deppressed. I, in real meaning, will be back soon.
Thank you for being my friends.

So, I had wonderful breakfast and coffee with BMF today at Iguana.
That was what I needed so much.
I feel so thankful for all the friendship and beautiful weather after the depressing spring storms.

Then, I realized my feeling is so depending on the weather and temperature. Also remember my mom was writing same thing before. Time to time, I get know that I am so influenced by family, close friends and environment surrounding me.

"And yet it's still moves"
          ---Galileo Galilei

I feel like this quote has so many meaning depends on your perception. But I like it.

Hope tomorrow will be meaningful day

What Should I start from?

Okay, I'm gonna start this blog to make a better life my self and hopefully inspire or interact with others who have something in common with me.

Well, I'm gonna start my finals week today,

What big deal for me these days is definitely my future plan after the graduation. I have 6 credit hours to go after this semester. And I am looking for the job position wherever I fit in.

It's kinda hard to explain the recruiting system of new graduates in Japan. But it's complicated and really time consuming and energy consuming too. I supposed to have a passion for that when I started looking up the positions. But going through the process, the ideal of my future and the ideal of the typical Japanese companies' do not go together most of the time. And then, I started looking the non-japanese companies which have a branch in Japan. And it worked better because they like me better than Japanese-japanese companies.

Now I've started thinking to work in the US or other counties after my graduation to start my career. I guess I performed a lot better here in the US than Who I was in Japan. I find lots of freedom here even though there are lots of difficulties too.

I also think I'm a learner as a nature. It's easier and more exciting for me to switch my life style constantly and adjust when things happened. Of course I have strong interest in the languages.
and feel natural to be with it for rest of my life.

Back to the topic,
the job hunting, I really can't imagine my 5 years later. It's exciting but at the same time, it's really  making me nervous.
and I still like my country.
So many contradictions and confusions.

Hope those concerns will be joke 5 years later!!

What I've got do is prepare for Spanish finals!
Adios!